Lord, Let Us Do Our Best Work Today

You know the kind of exhaustion that I welcome? Yung tipong itutulog ko lang. Physical and mental exhaustion yung ganon. That's why kahit these days, pagod ako from work, I thank God every single time. Dahil yung pagod ko, tulog lang ang katapat, mawawala rin. Unlike, say, many months ago, kahit gaano kahabang tulog, pagod pa rin ako. Emotional exhaustion never really goes away hangga't nandoon ka sa sitwasyon na nakaka-drain sa iyo, emotionally.

So thank You so much, Lord. Thank You po for everything.

Last night I had wanted to write an entry. Just to remind myself in the future of what life is like for me, these days. I just came from a long day that began at 3pm and ended at around midnight. Three meetings for two different projects. I've had longer days, but last night I came home really tired.  Maraming hurdles na kailangang harapin sa current project namin ngayon, na hanggang ngayon paggising ko yun pa rin ang iniisip ko. Pero gusto kong maging positive. And I AM positive.

This is a challenge. And I want our team to surprise you.  We will surprise you. Gusto kong mahulog ka sa kinauupuan mo sa gulat.

Shet. Tall frickin order.

You know the usual demons that plague people in this kind of work. Am I good enough? Can I do this? Am I creative enough? I think I know myself enough, after 37 years, but you know what? I want to surprise EVEN me. I want to believe there is so much more to me. As a creator. As a skilled specialist. I just need to PUSH myself a bit more.

And yes, PRAY.

I haven't been praying as much these past few years. Except to say thank you. Ayoko na sanang bulabugin si Lord sa mga mundane concerns ko sa life. Alam ko naman na may plano Sya.

Pero this morning I woke up and a prayer just popped into my head-- Lord, please let us do our best work today.

Lord, please let us do our best work today. And tomorrow. And the many days after.

Us. That's a good sign, I think. I'm no longer thinking of just me. I'm thinking about the team. I pray for the team, that we may get past all these hurdles and just fly. Fly and surprise them all.

With God's help. Lord, alam ko po may plano na kayo. Pero I pray, anyway. Let us do our best work today.