week 6, done (possibly with revisions)

slowpokes don't have days off. but thankful enough for a full good night's sleep every 7 days or so.

six weeks down, how many more to go? i don't know. it's a good problem, but...it scares me. the way they like the show raises expectations, puts the pressure on. on top of that, the deadlines.

you're a cog in the big machinery, makes sure you do your part, and punctually enough. or else the machine might conk out, and you'd be blamed for it.  blame is a strong word, but i'd rather think that, para hindiako mag-slack off at matakot ako at siguraduhin ko na hindi ako magkocause ng delay sa production. cause time is money. and in a show, no man is an island. no writer is an island. unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on your perspective and mood),  everything starts with YOU.

if you're late, it's a domino effect. if you don't do your job, the rest of the machine conks out.

on one hand, i'm happy to realize that where i am now, the work i do, it matters. unlike say, when i was scriptying for local movies. my whole scripty journey had been all about making my work matter. because honestly, in this inducstry, movies can get made withoout scriptys. but movies and TV shows can't get made without scriptwriters. in that aspect, i am thankful and feeling blest.

pero kung magpapakaparanoid tayo, the fact that evertrhing starts with your work... it's a daunting, even terrifying, pressuring task. kaya sa mga panahongpumepetiks na naman ako, o nadidistract ako masyado, i really should just remember. my actions affect the rest of the production. i'm not responsible for myself alone.i have a responsibility to the entire production, that i should deliver on time and material that is in fairly good shape.but mostly it really is about deadlines.

i really should be more aware of that. sharpen my sense of responsibility.

hello, week 7. how many weeks to go? i should sleep first. get a good night's sleep. when you start to care for the project, it becomes your life. i should have a consistent working rhythm, for the next many weeks or so.

sana naman wag sobrang stretch. good problem or not, we would want to remember this story as a good one. not a "stretched" one. let's preserve its essence.

thank you lord. but i'm scared. buti na lang, isa kaming tatsulok. me, my HW, and my CM. nothing beats the fulfillment of watching something you've written come alive.  aside from the fulfillment of watching something you've directed, maybe.

actually, ito lang. ngayon lang ako napasabi nito, the first time since 2008. Gusto ko nang maging direktor. Para madirek ko si JR  someday.

HAHA. usapang lasing na ito. pero oo, seryoso ako. nafrustrate much ako nung nagpapicture ako, at parang statwa si lolo. humanda ka sa kin balang araw... mwahahaha.

hay. balik na naman ang isip sa susunod na linggong gagawin. thank you lord. dahil parang may nabuhay sa pagkatao ko. yung kerida ko, halos hindi ko na sya binibisita. i'm an all-or-nothing beeyatch. either i love you so much, or i don't, at all.  i can't do the in-between. i'd love to, but that's not me.

hello week 7!