things to do vs things i want to do

There are so many things I want to do. Let me start with the kitchen.

I want to cook the soup recipes I found on Pinterest.

I want to try cooking my mother-in-law's favorite Sinigang.

I want to make and decorate My Little Pony cookies for my little one (everytime we watch the My Little Pony movie, the urge persists! Those ponies are all so cute!)

I want to cook pumpkin soup again.

I want to cookie the new recipe I got from our boss's chef (2nd hand info, but well--worth a try!)


Let's move on to the bedroom. (No.... not what you might think!)

I want-- no, NEED-- to do a major clearing of things. Part ways with stuff that only add to the clutter. Throw away things that I don't need anymore. Let go of my "darlings" (read: clutter)


Let's go outdoors.

I WANT-- no, DESIRE-- to go to the beach.

I want to travel out of the country-- but my passport! huhuhu. I haven't renewed it yet.

I want to lock myself in a pretty resort and write by the beach.


Let's go inward-- those little vanities (I'm not vain enough these days, sadly)

I NEED to get a haircut. But what I really want is a hair spa with a haircut. Or better yet, a hair rebond, hair spa, new color and a haircut.

I NEED to get a waxing session.


Let's do family.

I WANT to spend more time with my daughter. She's growing everyday, time is short.

I want to go somewhere beautiful with my mag-ama --- the beach! -- and just enjoy a relaxing, happy day with family.

I want to go on a second honeymoon with my husband-- and pretend we're still boyfriend and girlfriend.

I want to stay overnight at my parents' house.  And make the most of my stay there.

I  want to take my parents on a vacation they would truly enjoy.


Let's go to the mall!

I WANT to buy a new tray for my oven kasi kulang ang 2 trays kapag nagbebake ako.

I want to buy a new handmixer.

I want to buy that property right beside my mother-in-law's, that rundown apartment between Mommy's and Kuya's houses--- but wait, this is wishful thinking


Which leads me to wishes.

I WISH I had more money.
- To buy a lot of our own, and build a house of our own, right within our comfort zone-- meaning that lot between Mommy's and Kuya's houses (if only they are selling it! Please, sell it! You have no use for it! I know it will cost us a lot, to make this dream come true, and my husband probably wouldn't want to shell out too much because at the back of his mind he believes we don't need our own house and lot bought with hard-earned money, but... I'm going to wish that they would sell the property first. PLEASE SELL THE PROPERTY!)
- To make my parents comfortable for the rest of their lives, and not bleed from the additional money I'd have to shell out.
- To pay in full the lot property I've been paying for since 2016, and will still be paying for the next 3 years. (3 years na lang!!)
- To retire from my day job and start my own full-time business!
- To travel anywhere I want, whenever I want, and not mind how much it would cost me.
- To buy a car and not mind how much it would cost me.


All my other wishes... I'm still half-hearted about. Like being able to direct a first full-length film. Like going back to my filmmaking dream. Like moving up the corporate ladder (because it will give me a bigger salary!). Because I know there are trade-offs for these. But MONEY is concrete. MONEY = COMFORT. MONEY = FREEDOM, to do the things I want to do. MONEY = HAPPINESS. Because money na lang ang kulang.  I'm happy, thank You Lord, for a lot of things about my life. I'm counting blessings everyday. (Well... whenever I remember. But I SHOULD count everyday). My happy marriage. My mag-ama. My daughter. Blessings that are family, who support us in so many ways. A job that pays the bills and provides me fulfillment somehow, a job that matters in the grand scheme of things (at least in the world I am in). Good health (knock on wood, sana lagi lagi po Lord)-- not only mine, but my family's. Enough money to make life comfortable, to get by, to invest a little here and there.

Thank You, Lord. I hope you don't get mad at me for wishing for more... more money, that is.

If I had an extra 5 million pesos, I'd buy a self-liquidating property. Like a building or commercial property with spaces we can rent out.

Then the money that I would earn from that property, I'd use to finance a full-time business. I'd quit my job and focus on the business (pero bago ako mag-quit sa trabaho, dapat nakaipon na ako ng enough to live on for the next five years! All expenses should be covered!).

I can't be sure, maybe my confidence stems from not having enough knowledge, but at this point I think I have enough persistence and passion to be an entrepreneur.  At least those things, I know I have. Once I find the business that is promising and suits me, I'm going to embrace it. And do everything to make it grow.

So there.. so many things I want to do. So many things I wish I could have.

But back to reality. These are the things I need to do. Right now.
- prepare for a 2 pm meeting at work
- go to Cebuana to claim the small downpayment from a cookie client (overdue!)
- go to the bank to pay the monthly amortization for our lot property (overdue! huhu)
- give Philhealth a call to ask something about requirements we need to submit
- go to another bank to pay my accountant
- chaptering for the new show we are writing (Thank You Lord! they are now rolling! sana magtuluy-tuloy na)

Those TTDs, at the top of my head. I'm sure may nakalimutan ako. I'm sure may mga hahabol pa. At siginificant bulk of work ang kakailanganin for the first and last items.

Going back to wishes. How can I forget? I WISH I WOULD LOSE WEIGHT. Like, 30 pounds. HUHUHU. Wishful thinking.

And having a second baby? Yes, I'd like that. But my husband feels we are not financially prepared for it. And I'm halfhearted, too, because I don't know if I am prepared for another bundle of joy at this point. I don't know. Bahala na si Lord.

So on to the TTDs. Need to start ASAP to get a lot done.