in case i forget

monday - sick-at-home day
tuesday - writing deadline day (til 5am next day)
wednesday - brainstorm
thursday - meeting
friday - brainstorm

most of the brainstorms and writing deadlines were for the show that's being pulled away from us soon. sigh. i guess we won't get paid for that. :-( the soap is fortunately doing well at the ratings (knock on wood) and they want us to produce 2 weeks' worth of scripts at a time to cost-cut. hay. that means they'll have to pull us out of the other show that's being cooked. sayang. kasi yun ang malaki ang kita. kumpara sa soap.

no they're wrong. being busy can't always be equated to being rich. even in this job. sana mabago na soon. sana masimulan na uli ang isa pang raket. pandagdag-kita din yon.

i hate it that my mom slipped and bumped her head. because we have to go to the doctor for an examination, kahit na wala syang nararamdaman. doctor means money. kaya nakakainis. pero i really really hope that she's okay inside out and i won't gamble on that by not having her checked. i just hate it that little accidents like that had to happen.

nung maysakit ako early this week natatakot ako. nagpe-pray ako. na sana gumaling ako at wala lang to. dahil takot ako sa doktor. takot ako maramdaman ang anxiety of waiting for the results. takot ako sa worst case scenarios. takot ako, period.

had a weird dream. i attended a wake of two people---my late grandma and a little girl--but there was only one coffin. tapos, biglang bumangon ang mga patay, one after the other. yung isa---yung lola ko pa yon--humingi pa sa kin ng pagkain.

so strange. i hope it doesn't mean anything bad.

i really wish i'd be rich. soon or a little later.

just got home at 5am because of a post-meeting inuman and late late dinner with osobear. mamaya, may brainstorm ng 1pm. parang nakaka-alang gana namang magbrainstorm para sa isang commitment na alam mong hindi ka mababayaran. i really wish they wouldn't pull us out. wala akong passion sa project pero sayang yung money.

hay. money makes the world go you-know. cliche, but true.

anong pipiliin mo, maging mayaman o maging maganda? haha. ang hirap naman. kasi pag mayaman ka, pwede mong gamitin ang pera para magpaganda. pero kung maganda ka naman, pwede mo rin namang gamitin ang ganda para magpayaman. hmm. tough choice at 6 am. itutulog ko muna.