the movie in my mind

...is where there is no C  and there's only S and the girl, and i can pursue their love story to my heart's content.

in another place and time, another world (another show), you are my male lead, S, that exact same you with the glasses and the GQ clothes, and the overachiever background. you're the same confident, enigmatic in-command boss, and from the beginning til the end... you get the girl. 

but in this universe that is owtwowl, naaawa din ako sa yo. because your love is unconditional and giving. at least, it would turn out to be. all they see now is you wanting to steal C's girl, but you're not a bad person. not a bad person at all. nagkataon lang na yung babaeng gusto mo, may asawa.

at least, you're not doing anything about it, not actively, at least (bukod sa one time na nag"bakod" moves ka, at nagpaparty ka para sa kanya, pero nothing clear-cut and explicit, in fairness to you). 

i'm all for C and L getting together. of course i am, because theirs is the love story that all of us want to have. but you, S, you deserve a love story of your own. a girl of your own. not necessarily L, but someone deserving of you, you in all your perfection.

Sir. Wag ka namang ganyan tumingin. ;-P

3 weeks to go before finale. i'm going to have to post some of my own Happy Memories from this project.  sniff sniff. 

P.S.

i'm so bad at deadlines. :-( i hope it doesn't jeopardize my career. lol