pangalawang araw na namin sa Headquarters.
you get days when you feel like you would rather be out there instead. na parang ang energy/enthusiasm level mo, bumulusok below normal, for some reason. na parang gusto mo na lang ng regular office job.
tapos, manonood ka ng show nyo, tapos mari-realize mo--yet again--kung paano nagsimula lahat ng napapanood mo ngayon--right where you're sitting, six weeks ago, on a night that's the same as that which you went through last night.
maaalala mo kung pano nyo binuo at binuno ang bawat eksena, bawat plot point na napapanood mo ngayon, and somehow you feel reenergized. pride siya actually, morale
booster for the tired laborer, that same glow of pride you feel when you're watching a movie that you helped create--bawat eksena, alam mo ang behind the scenes, naaalala mo kung paano nyo shinoot and the problems and anecdotes during which. it's the same feeling, only better, kasi kwento nyo ito, creative ito, at feeling mo bawing bawi lahat ng pagod mo, na worth it ang lahat, all for that moment of pride pag napapanood mo ang finished product sa tv.
deadma na sa issue ng sole authorship. ganun talaga. deadma na sa issue na kung anong inuupuan nyo now ay pwedeng buwagin later, at pag lumabas na sa tv, pira-pirasong silip na lang sa original script mo ang makikita mo. in an imperfect world, crumbs ar better than nothing at all.
and most importantly, it's a living, it feeds you somehow kahit in crumbs for the meantime. and you want to wholeheartedly believe that from crumbs the bread will really sprout out--in time, with a good measure of tenacity and hard work.
sana. kaya you keep working.
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