busy thursday

lots of things happened today. more than january 12, the supposed day of "happy surprises" (so my horoscope says), this day was actually it.

finalized the 1st corporate video this afternoon, in time for tomorrow's presentation. was all set to hit the mall for a little vanity visit--wax my legs, get a haircut, shop for a few necessities--and planned to be home by dinnertime.

in the middle of my leg waxing sesh i got a call from the creative head. wanted me to go to the office for a wonderful new racket. woohoo. i'd wanted this racket since december. and when the bossing had broached the subject two days ago, i had a good feeling about it. and then, halleluiah.

ka-pressure lang. dahil sunday ang deadline for a week's worth of treatment, at in a way, answerable kami sa dalawang unit--our unit, who recommended us, and the unit we're racketing for. huhu. lord, eto na naman po ako. praying for even just a tiny dint of your brilliance to drop on little old me. please, lord. stress ito, but like that personally memorably bloody week 14 in k@torse, i really really need your help...because there's no other choice but to pull off the job. passably, at the very least. pero kakapalan ko na ang mukha ko, magpe-pray ako sa inyo na sana naman lumabas siyang maganda. hindi lang passable...sana maganda. at sana, sana, sana...makaabot sa deadline.

waah. hindi ko alam kung tama ba ang desisyon ko. stress. stress, stress. hindi ito take one lang, for sure. wala pang direktor, kaya double stress, dahil once a director steps in, baka magkaroon pa ng dagdag na revisions according to direk vision. lord, please help me.

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naiinis ako. everytime tinatanong nyo ko. naiinis ako, at no one in particular. or maybe at someone in particular. naiinis ako, at nararamdaman kong gusto kong bumitaw. emotionally.

parang gusto ko nga yon. dahil may nakausap ako tonight that just gave me a quotable quote re: the matter.

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it was nice to do a little revisiting in the bee-bee haus. it's been three years since i had last gone there. nice to see former co-workers, too. maybe it felt too nice. tsktsk. danger.

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caffeine is the bane of my existence at the moment. caffeine, and that. both make me restless. depressed. sleepless. and for that, i hate both of them equally.

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stress over schedules. tomorrow afternoon's the presentation. in the evening, a date with AVAT@R. in the morning, doing the liners for the racket. kelangan matapos ko yon before the presentation. or at the latest, friday night. hay. good luck to me.

saturday. have to drop an editing session for the 2nd video to accommodate the new racket. will be meeting up with my co-writer to finalize the liners. then write the treatment asap. isang linggo nga pala ito, nakalimutan ko. nasanay kasi ako sa paisa-isang araw.

hay. lord, help me please.

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isang linggo or less na lang, manganganak na ang baby ko. sana tatlo. or much better, apat. and i definitely expect all of them to look siamese. hmpf. enough pusakals in this house (putting foot down).