special

still reeling from the 24 hour shoot of yesterday and early this morning. left with a bundle of things to do. procrasstinating on this cold stormy night.

have yet to put myself together. damn. i can't. not right now. the things-to-do are splinters in my brain. they won't leave me in peace. but i'm too afraid to face them. not looking forward to the dis-ease.

AHHHHHHH! i swear! just get them over with and move on, dangit.

i'm fully-booked for the rest of the week. shoot tomorrow, class on saturday, shoot on sunday. i would've been happy about being busy. but i'm tired. it seems as if i'm always tired these days.

here there and everywhere. yet what i really want in my worst moments, having to be up-and-about in any god-given shooting set (when the rest of the world is asleep in their homes), is to go grocery-shopping with someone i really, really love.

haha. you meet so many people everyday, old and new, the beautiful, the famous, the critically-acclaimed. heroes, extraordinary people, people you look up to, people you've crossed paths with at some point in your life. and yet nothing compares.

special. i wouldn't exchange a day with anyone with a day with you.

arghhhh. ayoko pang gawin ang mga dapat gawin. marami akong excuses, maraming delaying tactics. but duty comes first. so just get friggin on with it, beeyatch.