will love be enough?

i got this quote from a multiply:

"there is no money in filmmaking. only love for the cinema, and respect for co-artists."

if there's only love and no money, will love be enough?
the best solution as i see it now is to get the money from elsewhere.

i've had this conversation with myself years ago. and formulated my plan: to get the money from somewhere that was close to what i loved to do. and do what i love to do on the side.

somehow the "day jobs" drowned out the thing that i was supposed to do "on the side". and encouraged the coward in me. you need love and money to survive. the love was there but it was never really sated; and the money that was supposed to fill in the emptiness just wasn't enough. and i mean figures-speaking. so it was probably a stupid move, to stick to it, to have had the misconception that i could compromise, and marry my two mistresses, and come out halfway happy.

if you want money, get it elsewhere. not in making films.
dahil sabi nga nila, there is no money in filmmaking. whatever position you're in.

love will not be enough. you need to be brave enough, too. to churn it out. to actually do it. it's one thing to dream and another thing to do something about it.

there is no straight line to the fulfillment of a dream. no easy way up. no stepping stones, no surefire plans, no scholarships that would ensure you'll get There.

in the final analysis, it really is ALL.UP.TO YOU.

for all the world cares. you can make money from stockbrokering during the day and make your films during the night. in the end, you fulfill your two needs.

on the other hand, you can slave away in the same field, thinking that you are on the right track. getting yourself misled, misdirected. mistaking one for the other.
and end up with nothing but regrets.

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love will not be enough. but didn't they say that if you love something enough, you will want to do everything to get it?

so maybe that's something to think about, too.

ewan ko. confused ako. for the first time in a long time, hindi ko alam kung anong gusto ko.

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love for something versus love for someone. it doesn't have to be that way, but if it has to be that way, the choice would probably be easy.

or maybe not.
i don't know.
just sorting out thoughts.