madness tuesday

changes, changes everyday.

NKKLK.

nasa gitna ka na. biglang titibagin. biglang mag-iiba.

oh well. daily realities.

as if  chasing (missing) deadlines isn't bad enough.

lugmok ako ngayon, puyat, masama pakiramdam. and honestly. times like these... money is my only consolation.

yes, they love the show, yadda yadda. thank you lord. but at the end of the day. it's really all about money to me.

di ko kailangan ng prestige. kailangan ko, moolah.

madness. rght now, just let me fuckin succumb to it. itigil muna natin ang pag-ikot ng letcheng (masikip at lonely) na mundong ito. at maging baliw lang at magsisigaw. dahil need ko ng moolah. at nabubwisit ako sa mga anak ng diyos na dahilan kung bakit mababawasan ang moolah at kailangang magmadali ng mga inilalabas namin. para maaccommodate ang oras nya.

i love those moments. when i feel like i'm in love with you, and i was born for you. but those moments are rare. at sa mundong ito, na sobrang bilis, wala akong time namnamin yung mga moments na yon. dahil 50:50 ang Golden Rule dito. bilis, ganda. pag wala ang isa, wala ring kwenta.

daily realities.  a bitch.

hindi ko alam kung para ba ako sa yo. siguro tama yung isang writer na kakilala ko.  sa ngayon, para ako sa yo. at this point, i'm meant to be here. but if i am. bakit lagi akong late. bakit parang may something sa loob ko na sinusubok ang tadhana. is it a subconscious effort to...i don'nt know... just spit at the concept of time? am i really meant to be this for the rest of my pokpoking life?

which brings to this thought- i want an early retirement. but before you can afford something like that, you should fuckin SAVE. SAVE like you've never saved before. because you can never save enough. the more you save, the earlier you can afford freedom.

i love this. most of the time. no scratch that. half the time. i'm just sad about less moolah now.

stress. more real to me than anything in my list of daily realities to live with, these days.

ayokong magkasakit sa stress. butina lang, nababalanse ng good feelings.

healthy sa body ang show. makes me smile, makes me happy, watching. paano pa kaya kung hindi ko mahal ang show. stress x 100. patayan na ito. ayoko...

may iba akong buhay sa labas nito. pero sa ngayon, ito ang mundo ko hanggang pebrero.