nakakatawang nakakabwisit and FG on retrospect

the other night i just had the most astounding, most memorable First Meeting With A New Person ever.

apart from surprise, one of my first reactions was anger. not towards the new person, but towards the one she's talking about. kasi ganon ako. impulsive, likas na selosa, and the girl sounded soooo dang sure of what she claims to have been seeing.

i kept my feelings under wraps, because i was in front of virtual strangers (except waterfowl, who was the one who went bonkers on my behalf). but right at that moment, i wanted to march back up to 15th floor. i wanted to confront.

buti na lang nakapag-isip pa rin ako bago ako sumugod. haha.
it doesn't check with logic.
it's so out of character.
and bottom line is this. i know him. and i don't know her. not to say that i don't trust her. but i trust him more.

o di ba, may mga ganyan na ko. etchos.

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beatlebum asked me what my gut feel told me.
honestly, it told me nothing. but the negative feelings had stemmed from the oh-so-solid conviction of the New Person i just met. who could ignore that? who could not ask questions?

hindi naman ako tanga, at matagal na kong nag-retire sa pagkagaga. kaya syempre tinanong ko pa rin sya nung nagkita kami later. to inform, to gauge, to evaluate.
kinwento ko lahat.
and i was right. no trace of guilt whatsoever.

pero ang nakakatawang nakakabuwisit, sa dinami-dami ng mga taong pag-uusapan ng ganon, siya pa.
at sa dinami-dami ng selosang gaga na kukwentuhan ng ganon, ako pa.

nakakatawang nakakabwisit talaga, pero mas nakakatawa na lang ngayon.

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natupad na ang lahat-lahat ng Wishes For Someday ko noon about FG. everything, except for Wish List #1 (Sana mainlove sya sa kin). na sa ngayon, okay na din namang hindi matupad at all.

three years ago, siguro nilasing ko na ang sarili ko nang todo at nag-may i channel angry alanis all night habang (reluctantly) pinapanood siyang kalambutsingan ang jowa nya.

pero nung sang gabi, naaaliw ako sa kanila. pangyoutube ang dalawa! haha.

there was a moment when i saw him, though. he was just staring at osobear and me. parang naaaliw na naninibago na hindi makapaniwala (dahil sabi nga nya that night, akala nya talaga tomboy ako. pfft! tomboy nga kasi laging naiinlab sa binabae). that moment was priceless. paminsan minsan lang nya ko pagmasdan ng ganon. ha!ha!

hay. guwapo pa rin sya.
pero di na tulad ng dati.
mas cute pa rin ang oso sa palaka. :-)