mixed feelings...

but i would rather channel hope and optimism, for the sake of 2010. yes lord, i have faith in you. the best has yet to come!

nag-feedback meeting kami kagabi. the last feedback meeting for k@torse. it was the end but i know i will still be working with the people on that table for many more projects. our creative head, whom i still have to learn so much from. our headwriter, who has already to me much but who will teach me more in 2010. our executive producer, who will write more paychecks for me through the years (hehe). and of course, my co-writers, my peers, whom i will work with for many more years to come.

yan ang wish ko. ang dream ko. and i have faith in the lord that he will see me through my dream. naaaliw ako sa creative head namin na maraming anecdotes tungkol sa mga experiences niya with fellow writers nung edad niya kami. gusto kong someday may mga maikwento rin akong ganon sa mga susunod sa akin. the fun stuff, despite the hardships. the humor in the struggles. gusto kong ma-inspire tulad ng kung paano siya na-inspire ng mga seniors at bosses nya noon.

everything will be alright. i pray. i hope. i have faith. i will make more friends. find more families. sow more seeds. deepen my roots. and above all, get better.

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in a way, i'm relieved for the brief respite. i have my christmas holidays off somehow. except for the avp racket. kahit posibleng may bonus at mukhang magiging somewhat prosperous naman ang pasko at bagong taon, nakakatakot pa ring gumastos to my heart's content...nakakatakot gumastos beyond what i normally shell out on ordinary days. kasi hindi ko pa alam kung kelan ang next project, ang next paycheck. kaya siguro kailangan ko munang higpitan ang sinturon, so to speak. need to save up in case of the rainy days.

pero sana, the next project will come soon. by january. sana, sana.

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nag-videoke kami ng co-writers ko last night. mami-miss ko rin ang k@torse team. 16 weeks of scripting. 8 months of work. we were together far longer than that, during our ur s0ng days, and we were a happy team. it was not without the normal arguments over work but compared to most, we got along very well. i'm glad that i've found friends among them.

si n0ringai. swing, swing. brat. mother hen. green. queen of quotable quotes when it comes to j0j0. super maaasahan. masarap kabatuhan. i loved working with her.

si monj. si cinderella among the evil stepsisters. laging may boom mike na nakatutok sa kanya everytime he spews out those quotable quotes out of the blue. haha. i'm happy to have worked with a longtime friend. lalo na dahil sya ang queen of quotable quotes when it comes to gabby. we share a certain fondness for that gabby character.

si b1ng. kasabayan kong pumasok sa team, one year ago. perfect hostess. super nice. di ko makakalimutan ang ilocos vacation namin...sana maulit. hehe.

si s1g. siya ang peg kay gabby noon. strangely, before i never thought i'd like sig, pero i guess he kinda grows on you. lalo na when he's now become so quiet and so pensive after his hospital experience. my heart goes out to him, kasi from someone who used to love to talk, sobrang tahimik na nya ngayon! ang brilliant pa naman niya. kakaiba ang mga take nya sa mga bagay-bagay, very male. siya ang gabby ng grupo.

si ph1lip. he was only with us for a while pero malaking tulong siya sa trabaho. kasi sya ang pinakasenior sa aming lahat, and he's a fast and efficient worker. he's our peg for j0j0. rich angas pero likable gentleman...at close sa ina. mahilig maglasing pero dun yata nya nakukuha ang kanyang creative energy. haha. nami-miss ko ang kotse nyang ginagawa naming carpool tuwing madaling araw pauwi. hehe.

hay. di bale, we will all work together again soon. :-) it's just a matter of when and what show. haha. i will it! universe, hear me!

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so ngayon, on to the next project. bukas simula na ng 3-day shoot namin. good luck sa akin, ngayon pa lang ako magsha-shotlisting. kayang kaya. i will it. magagawa namin to ng mabilis at maayos at maganda. at pa-packup kami nang maayos na oras. at uuwi ako nang masaya. :-)

goo luck to me talaga. lord, help me please.