my dreams for aysiebear

1) buy her books as early as 1 year old para bata pa lang ma-inculcate na sa kanya ang love for reading
2) teach her the value of money and savings. pero dahil hindi rin ako magaling don, i'll leave the teaching to her daddy na lang.
3) encourage her to form her own opinion and speak her mind, but teach her to be sensitive to other people's feelings.
4) encourage her in school and in all her personal endeavors.
5) teach her the value of education.
6) teach her how to be a mabuting tao...hindi ko lang alam kung ano yung speicific steps. hehe.
7) discipline her. and control myself from spoiling her.

in love

with my anak. she's only been with us for two months but my world has started to revolve around her. she's my gem, my legacy to the world, my purpose, something to live for.

kahit may yaya, gusto ko hands-on ako sa pag-aalaga. as much as possible, pag wala naman akong work, she's with me. kasi pag hindi, pag matagal ko syang hindi naaalagaan o nahahawakan, i feel guilty. feeling ko hindi buo ang pagiging ina ko pag hindi ako ang nag-aalaga sa anak ko. pag lumalabas ako ng bahay, siya pa rin ang nasa isip ko. gusto ko nang umuwi agad dahil kelangan ng anak ko ang gatas ko.

she turned 2 months old on october 23. she's starting to learn the world around her, marunong nang tumitig, marunong nang makinig. soon she'll be smiling voluntarily, and making ga-ga-goo-goo sounds. sabi nila pag five or six months na daw at nagrerespond na sa mga tao, nakakatuwa. i can't wait. i can't even believe it's only been two months since ipinanganak ko siya. parang antagal na!

happy and thankful

that my prayer was answered. i'm done with the final draft; they're taping the episode today. yey! thank you lord!

now i have reserved this day for babytime. take some time to breastfeed and exclusively care for my aysiebear. there are two problems though--dahil medyo ilang araw na rin akong hindi madalas nagpapabreastfeed, mahina ang gatas ko ngayon...at ang anak ko, matakaw pa naman sa gatas, kaya hindi sya nabubusog sa breastfeeding sessions namin.

isa pa, isang linggo ko pa lang syang hindi exclusively inalagaan, nagbago na yata ang timpla nya...nagiging iyakin na siya, at hindi ko siya mapatahan! mas napapatahan pa sya ng yaya nya...and for the first time i am seriously bothered. i'm jealous of the yaya, because i'm the mommy and i couldn't console my baby. :-( the hazards of a working mom. pero ayoko...hindi ako gi-give up hanggang hindi napapalapit uli sa kin ang anak ko. hehe.

basta thank you lord...happy happy...counting blessings...celebrating dahil para kong nabunutan ng tinik sa final draft na nairaos ko. :-)