Tuesday, February 06, 2018

the best feeling in the world


I go into her room, find her wrapped in her pink blanket, asleep.
move hair away from her face, about to leave when she calls me- Mama..
I go back. I'm happy she's awake! But I know too she has to go back to sleep soon.
baby girl.
naamoy kita.
anong amoy ko?
pabango.
i climb into bed lie beside her. hug her. my soft huggable daughter.
she hugs me back. cuddles. my sweet 7 year old babygirl.
she tells me about her cousin from Singapore whom they'd been chatting with earlier on FB.
sabi ni ate, pauwi ka na daw.
binili kita ng (favorite nyang brand of milk in tetra pack)
thank you, Mama. sarap non e.
Day 5 na ako anak. Bukas, tapos na work. matutulog ka na sa amin!
yey! saka sa Friday!
nagpray ka na ba?
and she puts her palms together in praying position, closes her eyes. i wait.
soon she finishes. i tell her, back to work na ako anak. walang tulugan.
more hugs and cuddles. the best feeling in the world. when you're being hugged like this by your child. so much love. raw and innocent and unconditional, a child's love for her mother.
i say Good night anak.
Good night Mama...
I love you.
I love you, she responds. lately she doesn't say I love you as often as she used to. So I figured this must be a special moment.

i just want to remember this moment. put it in a time capsule and go back to it every now and then.