Wednesday, February 03, 2010

hopeful for february :-)

a little scared. crossing the road. crossing my fingers. uncertain, but praying and hoping that all will turn out well.

grateful. for work. for projects in progress. january has been somewhat busy. 1st two weeks were relaxed, then humataw sa second half. thank you lord. i need to keep the money coming, after the last show that aired.

sleepy. gusto ko nang matulog. it's 3 am, at may deadline mamayang gabi. may meeting pa ng hapon. good luck to me. sana magawa ko naman nang matino ang revisions. i pray that it would be as quick and easy as i wish it would be.

blew my top. over a packet of nescafe 3-in-1 coffee. tsk tsk. it keeps happening to me lately. short fuse me. i hope it's NOT biochemical.

addicted to prison break. yeah, two or three years late. lovette nonetheless. the bida looks yummy. my anti-type.

and there comes a day when this happens to you. three former crushes in the same room, at the same time, all smiling at you and showering you with attention. for ten full seconds. and you take it all in, the irony of it---and laugh to yourself at the inside joke, that they all have one thing in common--but at some point you think it's too much to take in. and you have to bail. with a flippant goodbye. way too much. the laughter is just spilling out of you. but moments like that become the highlight of your day.

hay. haay, haay.

the other day, almost the same thing happens. i was sitting in one place, and excrush 1 passes by. waves a hi. moments later, excrush2 goes up to me and taps me on the shoulder. even made small talk and patted me on the head (bata? haha. buti na lang lost cause na to. baka nga nagfi-feeling pa ngayon). then a little later, excrush 3 passes by, says hi with a wink. haha. irony, irony.

sorry bb, puro excrushes laman ng entry na to. at least EX is the operative syllable. haha.

the night has come, i realize
alas, i am a child no more.

nervous. scared. but hoping that all will turn out well. alam ng diyos ang makakabuti para sa ating lahat.

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