Thursday, December 02, 2010

it's beginning to smell a lot like christmas...

..or not. i used to be so good at being able to tell by the smell of the air. but that was when i was still living in marikina. and that's because i'd lived there all my life, kaya alam ko ang pagbabago-bago ng simoy ng hangin sa suburbia. pero ngayon, living at the cusp of urban malabon, medyo mahirap malaman. it's my first time to spend christmas away from the home i grew up in. ibang-iba ang pasko na to, dahil sa mga pagbabago sa buhay ko. first christmas with a new baby. first christmas being married. lots of firsts.

two scripts to go for the soap we're writing. it was seven months in the making but strangely, parang ambilis ng mga pangyayari. i didn't even climax, figuratively speaking. mas mahirap pang manganak kesa gawin ang soap na to, for a multitude of reasons (lots of time, one or two scripts per writing session, the fact that it's an adaptation), pero it's gonna be biiiig. ramdam ko. and i really hope that it would prosper on 2011.

excited for 2011. change is good, i should always remind myself. like most people i'm afraid of change, but really, it is good. it will be good for me in so many ways. i anticipate a little pain that goes along with the transition, pero lahat naman ng growth spurts may pain that would go along with it. and yes, i expect a growth spurt from me. nothing less. walang ibang choice kundi maggrow, at maggrow nang mabilis. or else!

afraid. pero happy and thankful. and praying so hard, so fervently, that he would be my guide, and my ultimate mentor. dahil para ito sa ikauunlad ng buhay. para ito sa pamilya ko. and most of all, para sa anak ko. cliche as it may sound, gusto mong mabigyan namin sya ng magandang buhay. i just realized na iyon na ang misyon ko sa buhay. masayang childhood, magandang edukasyon, maginhawang buhay para sa anak ko.

and to get all that, i have to move up. be better. learn more.

overall, grateful and content, lord. thank you po. happy birthday to you in advance. love you po! mwah!

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