is when you're trying to meet a deadline. but i just have to say something about the whirlwind stuff that's been happening to me these days. the enormous change that's about to happen to my working life in the next several months.
make or break time. do or die. sink or swim. and i am not exaggerating. OHO sooo not.
nung isang araw naghihintay ako sa office. for a meeting with a bossing. dreading the minutes, hours...the agonizing wait. sabi ko sa sarili ko, maghihintay kaya ako hanggang 10pm...para lang masermonan? principal's office ba ito? batcave? ano? thing is... i had no idea. absolutely no idea why i had been called.
well, not absolutely. may faint idea naman. and, well, to be honest i was uber nervous. expecting the worst hoping for the best. i was imagining how the dialogue would go. the worst lines, really. but what i didnt expect was that two days later i would be thrust in the middle of a new project. yep, this sink or swim make or break do or die be punctual or be dead new project.
so here i am. hyperventilating. scared. to death. super. praying. for the frist time in quite some time. lord. please. help me fight. help me pull this off. til the very finale. til the very final closing billboard. i want to do this right. i want to pull this off. please. help me. please.
i feel like i'm being tossed into a den of lions. superprime. rush. no headwriter. and little slowpoke pentium-1 me as the only one in there. and to say that i am not terrified would be an utter complete lie. i am terrified beyond comprehension. but there are only two options, really. eat the lions or be eaten. win or lose. sink or swim. my head is above water but i will do my very best to stay afloat til the very very end.
i haven't wanted something this badly for a long time. at least where work is concerned. please lord. please. help me. just a little dint of brilliance. just a little dint of speed. please lord. help me.
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