man, this chick's got issues

top ten male-related pet peeves:
1. men who openly ogle at girls, from bumper-to-hooter.
2. men with girlfriends/wives who still flirt with other women.
3. guys who have "desperate" practically stamped on their foreheads.
4. female-condescending macho types.
5. bitchy gays who vent their life angsts/gender frustrations on females.
6. playboys. naku, hate ko talaga sila.
7. feeling-playboys. mas lalo na tong mga 'to.
8. men who kiss-and-tell.
9. guys who tell other people that "so-and-so is in love with me", whether it's true or not.
10.closeted/confused gays who use clueless, gullible females as 1) a front, or 2)a pawn in their quest for self-discovery (which includes a little stage called Trial-and-Error, where the female pawn's role comes in)

hooha. man, this chick's got issues.

by the way, since we're on the topic of male-related pet peeves, got a fwendster message from Mr. Prince Charming-from-Prep last night:

musta? are you mad at me or something? di mo
nako pansin lately eh.. anyway here's my number
(********) just in case you wanna keep in
touch.. don't worry next time na mag meet tayo i
won't present anything about networking and
stuff... ingat!

hahaha. panalo yung last sentence. i would've been rollin over with laughter right now, if i weren't so friggin disillusioned yesterday. anyway, i didn't bother to reply. cause if i did it would've been somethin like this:

hi! am i mad at you? nah. kaw talaga, giving yourself too much credit na naman. salamat naman at hindi mo na ko o-offeran ng networking business in case magmeet tayo uli. i'll bet iba na naman yan next time. insurance? memorial plan? o privilege card sa Makro?

bigay ko na lang number mo sa nanay ko in case interested syang kontakin ka. sya yung mahilig sa mga ganun e. magkakilala na naman kayo di ba, since tinry mo din syang i-recruit sa networking chorva mo noon. sige, have a nice life, ingat!

hehe. truth to tell, i'm not mad at him. i just don't LIKE him. sorry for being bitter, but the message came in at the wrong time. yesterday has rekindled me back on Angst-Against-Males mode again. and that message was just the perfect cherry-on-top.

well. it seems that each day is somehow contributing to the overall angst that's been building up. it's not healthy, but that's life. a bitch, sometimes. and yesterday's little scenario was almost as "anecdotal" as that Horror Date with the networking guy two years ago.

imagine having your happy-thought-at-4 am being snuffed out in 30 minutes. surprisingly, there was not much pain involved. no sinking shattering feeling, no little pinpricks to the heart. maybe because i wasn't all that surprised that it happened. or maybe because i'm not really as "into" him as i thought.

and from there it was easy to detach. you're the A-hole, not me. now i'm seeing what you really are and i wouldn't want to have anything to do with the likes of you, would be BETTER OFF not having anything to do with the likes of you. it was annoying, the blatant display of what-not, more than annoying in fact, but it was nothing but a blow to the ego. nothing compared to what i've somehow gone through in the past five weeks.

i'll survive. just as i'll survive the next 10 days without having a nervous breakdown. you devise your own survival kit in every case. so this one failed me. fine. goodbye. pakialam ko sa yo.

hay. umaga na naman. work starts at 8 am. i love mornings. i hope i get to go home early. ten days to go. and the contravida-in-the-haus is gone, which means less conflict and more work at trying to MAINTAIN conflict. that somehow worries me.