Wednesday, September 21, 2005

postscript from the future

reading back to my past entries (i.e. one year ago), can't help but wish that i could be as open and direct as i was before. i'm tired of being cryptic, and the only reason why i had to be was because i was scared. that someone who's not supposed to read this might stumble upon this blog one day.

haha. oh well. everything's going to pass by me. and i'm going to pass by a few other things as well. one year later maybe i'm going to write about the things i've been getting all cryptic and vague about. keber na sa mga di dapat makabasa. by that time it won't matter anymore, anyway.

i can write more than a dozen things-to-love about this person from the very first time that our common world began. the first time i sat next to him in class. the first time i learned that i turned a year old the minute he was brought into this world. the first time i saw him light a cigarette. the first time i heard him sing. the first time i saw him laugh in pure glee. the more-than-a-dozen times that he was around.

a year from now, though, i know i will only remember them. detached, removed of emotion, maybe even preoccupied with something (or someone) else.

and so life goes. either you move on, or you die. :-)

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I hope closure comes for you soon. :) Nothing more uneasy than being in limbo.