* day 22 of 28+1 days was over by 6 pm today. we shot scenes outside of the city. the so-called "rural village" suspiciously looked like laguna. haha, oh well. at least it reminded me of home. kahit hindi ako taga-laguna.
* the weather today was probably the hottest working condition i've ever been under. ever. it must have been more than a hundred degrees out there. i'm toasted brown, as usual. but i don't really care anymore. not for the next 7 or more days.
* i got pissed at someone today. the same person i've been getting pissed at for the last twenty-or-so days. ang sungit e. parang nag-aandropause. at dahil sa init ng panahon wala na rin akong pasensya sa mga bugnutin at masungit na mga hindi-ko-bossing na katulad nya. kung boss ko sya siguro pwede pang magpasensya. ganon talaga e. you have to play by the politics, whether you friggin like it or not. you need not suck up to the powers-that-be (plastik naman ng ganon mehn) but at least you should have a little more patience for the ones who control your fate in the current working place. pero NAMAN, kung magkaiba tayo ng departamento at hindi mo naman ako subordinate, please. i won't take shit from you. so don't take it out on me just because your own boss is laying out his own shitty baggage on you.
* i know this will pass. naglalabas lang ako ng pagkabwisit. kaso minsan dapat maglalabas ka din ng pangil. minsan it's your only protection from the world.
* siguro nga tama si (walang kamatayang!) frog princess. maybe there's a bitchiness to me na sinusupil ko lang noon pa. dahil "bad". dahil "unkind". dahil gusto kong paniwalain ang sarili ko na hindi ako masamang tao. eh punyeta (wow, ngayon ko lang nagamit ang "punyeta" sa blog na to), kung palagi kang magiging mabait eh baka magkasakit ka sa puso nyan. if someone tries to hit you, sometimes it would be healthy to hit back. healthy for you. and good for them. lalo na pag nasa tama ka.
sidenote:
* i wish i could go to bangkok after this movie. pero dahil marami akong dala, at ang mga likely companions ko eh mas maraming dalang bagahe, mukhang magiging improbable. sayang. nakapalaot na ko, maganda sana kung sagad-sagarin ko na. pero di pwede e. hanggang saigon na lang muna.
* i mourn for lost friendships. but i'm just too exhausted to try patching things up. if you're gone, then goodbye. the fact that you're no longer there must mean that we were not meant to be friends in the first place.
* it makes you sad, though. lalo na kung matagal ang pinagsamahan. kung marami nang pinagdaanan. eh ganon talaga buhay e. may mga bagay lang talaga na hindi na pwedeng bumalik sa dati. at minsan, wala ka na ring pakialam.
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