five episodes to go

doing work for the new soap. i'm on week 12, five episodes to go. deadline is today.

at mainit na naman ang ulo ko. f__k. i hate this.

i feel like i'm trapped in this condition. it came at the wrong time. right now, yan ang nararamdaman ko. wrong---friggin---timing. when i have my WHOLE LIFE ahead of me. and i have yet to experience the JOYS of being out there.

because i haven't, really. sumagwan lang ako sa kabilang isla. hindi pa nga ako nakakalabas ng pacific ocean. and times like these, how i WISH i still can. times like these na NAIINIS ako, i want to bail out. you are making me miss what i no longer have, and how i WISH you knew that. para masaktan ka kahit papano.

dahil putsa, para kang TUOD. ang sarap alugin ng bangka mo para mahulog ka naman sa tubig at mag-react ka naman dyan. bwiset ka.

tomorrow's a party. not in the mood for some socializing. but tell you what, maybe i'll treat myself to a hot oil tonight. maybe i'll primp a little and try to be vain for once. maybe i still can. maybe i will.

i HATE all hecklers. HATE is a bad word, but OH, how CATHARTIC it feels to just SHOUT-IT-OUT.

back to work.