same time, next year

one year ago, i was...
...24 years and 5 months old.
...in cebu as script continuity supervisor for the Jeffrey Jeturian-Armando Lao movie, "Minsan Pa".
...picking starfishes and seashells along Visayan shores. chasing goats across a meadow under the hot noon sun. staring through aqua waters onboard a tugboat. Having my ultimate adventure for 2004.
...missing home, counting the days til packup time. not knowing that i was actually living through golden days.
...struggling with being the newbie in the team. making strange friends. working with an assistant director who was to become my top choice for 2004's "Sayang Ka Siztaahhh!" award. Wahaha.
...taking sh*t and d*rt from primadonna-esque actors who didn't want to be rushed in their primping for scenes. my pride practically nonexistent (amazing what sheer passion can make you do)
...a certified little brown sister from all that running. i was beyond brown, actually. and i didn't friggin care! :-)

today this year i am...
...25 years and 5 months old. Old!!!
...working on mainstream kilig television
...feeling sentimental about the show who possessed my 2005---because it's gonna end soon (sniff)
...missing someone who's been outtasight for days
...remembering someone's laughter and the things they used to laugh about
...broke for the moment
...a body hungering for sleep
...a pair of lungs screaming "enough"
...a mind that's been subjected to torture in the wee hours
...tired
...waiting for the work to start by itself. hehe.
...missing someone. ay nasabi ko na pala yon.
...hoping that something i'm hoping for will be granted.

one year from now i...
...will be 26 years and 5 months old. Old!!!
...will still probably be writing on this blog.
...wouldn't want to hand out my "Sayang Ka Siztaaah" awards to anyone anymore.
...want to have finished something that i'm really praying i'd get the chance to do. or be in the midst of finishing it.
...want to have more steady work in the audiovisual field, preferably in the position i aspire the most :-)
...want to have finished another short film.
...want to have gone to another foreign country. or at least, another beach paradise.
...want to be in constant contact with The One Who's Been Outtasight For Days.
...want to fall in love with the right person.
...want to be loved by the right person.
...want to stay friends with the ones i have now. and gain a few more lifelong friendships.
...want to stay intact and happy with my family.
...want to be richer!
...want to be slimmer!
...want to be a more learned, more giving, much better person.
...want to have more fulfilled wishes.