back on the express lane

this is turning out to be a year to remember.
fast, eventful, colorful.

i only wish i could find the time to breathe. stop and smell traces of arabica in each 3-in-1 coffee i consume every day.

i've been through express-lane days before, had the worst during my tenure at Da Haus, but these days are different. these days there are more smiles, more excitements, more ups than there are downs. and while the familiar feeling of being lost in the rumble-and-tumble is still here at least i'm not craving for a day at the beach. because once i start craving for the beach in the middle of a busy day it's a sign that i'm not happy. and so this must mean that i probably am.

happy. longing for a momentary breather, but basically happy.

the film is about to wrap up. three or four more days to go and we're done.

there's a shoot for a new music video on the 27th. juggling preprod for that with the current day job. happy, happy. because i kinda missed creative work. so dang friggin much.

our short film GeeGee at Waterina is playin at the CCP theaters this week. fingers crossed, praying for good outcomes, happy enough that we got this far.

family just bought a new van to take me to and from work locations. bongga. ang sarap ng may hatid-sundo at your beck and call. di ko na kakailanganin ng boyfriend na may kotse. heh.

been a wrinkled year. i'll always remember that. but life has ways of making it up to you.

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sana lang hindi na in touch ang mga taong ayoko nang masyadong makasalamuha sa lifetime na to.
may mga taong ganon, no?
yung bang kahit anong gawin nila, they inevitably make you feel bad about yourself.
may mga moments tuloy na parang gusto mo nang kalimutan na nakilala mo sila. kahit na tinuturing ka pa nilang "friend".

"friend" ba kamo?
nako.
the feeling isn't mutual.

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on the other hand, may mga tao rin namang minsan nawawalan ka ng tiwala, pero biglang pabibilibin ka uli.
yun bang, at the last minute, just when you were resolved to lose the faith altogether, bigla syang susulpot. biglang magpaparamdam.

whatever the reason is. whatever the circumstances are. siguro nga we all are looking for our own muses and heroes. minsan we pick the first interesting person that comes our way. nagkataon lang. dahil nung moment na yon, kailangan natin ng inspirasyon.