the art of counting backwards (...)

these days i'm...
...orienting myself with "house-arrest" tv
...finishing up work as segment producer, starting up work as story editor
...shooting on the field nearly everyday
...dealing with new people nearly everyday
...in sneakers and jeans most of the time
...into D&G Light Blue (harhar, gooobye Lewis and Pearl!)
...enjoying our family meals more than usual
...worried. scared. anticipating. excited.
...in happy company nearly every shoot
...occasionally aglow for the flimsiest, most pathetic, silliest reasons
...losing touch with friends-outside-the-house
...making friends inside the house
...trying not to fall into the old ways. or trying to, for kilig's sake
...wishing, hoping, praying, that the next 45 days will see me being happily productive where work is concerned.

yesterday i...
...shot a hunk-in-the-pool scene. (haha. wish i could say i enjoyed it)
...wore red to work. (apparently it was the color of the day)
...had lunch in a resto with nearly half-a-dozen hearts decorating its walls. hay. happy valentine's.
...went to the famously posh forbes park for the first very first time. haha, bourgeois me!
...got my first job assignment as story editor.
...learned a li'l bit more about a "mysterious" co-worker (without having to solicit the info..and straight from the horse's mouth at that. goal!)

two days ago i...
...shot behind-the-scenes of a morning show
...shared cadbury's chocettes with co-workers for breakfast
...nearly made a blunder (though not my fault, if that makes any friggin sense)
...met someone's dad
...realized that taking a backseat trip from metro south to north at rush hour can drain the life outta me
...got into another love vs. money dillema
...decided to choose money (ha! sellout beeyatch!)
...realized that love can wait, at least until after the 45th day

three days ago i...
...did my first behind-the-scenes and interview shoot for the new job
...was alone in a crowded place with the frog princess
...was alone in an enclosed space with the frog princess (at midnight, take note)
...started the day a li'l bit later than usual
...ended the day somewhat rattled

four days ago i...
...began Day 1 on house-arrest
...met the frog princess again
...realized (with glee!) that life's a lot happier if things are less intense

lookin forward to more adventures. more smiles. more money. and more of that unwavering, indefatigable focus.

my survival kit for the next 45 days:
1. same quality of work in (much) less the time
2. absorb. learn. master, if possible.
3. don't let the little hurdles at work get to you. you're blest as is and be friggin happy about it.
4. love the work, even if you're working for the money. then it's gonna be a win-win thing.
5. save up more than you would spend.
6. don't fall in love with co-workers.
7. stop recycling, bitch.
8. focus. focus. focus!


so help me dear god.