and the work force is on a roll.
there's a shoot everyday for Da Haus as the countdown closes in on Da Big Nyt. whew. i only joined four or five days ago (thus, i'm relatively less "ngarag" than the others who've been working since three weeks ago), but mehn, the shoots. they happen everywhere, everyday. and the assignments for the new job (i shifted departments two days ago, from production to creative) are now coming in. deadlines, again, for the life of me.
just some quick notes to myself before bedtime:
* have to take less of those cab trips. they're draining what's left of your savings from the last job. the first paycheck, they say, will be coming in less than a month from now. loooong time. so you really have to scrimp if ya know what's good for ya.
* politics, politics. not exactly your cup o' tea. if you're not as "bakla" as the rest then maybe it's better to stay out of the line of fire. you can't be what you are not.
* the real work hasn't even started yet and you'll still be dealing with lots of new people (and some of the technicians inside the 28-camera workroom, they say, are notorious for bad behavior), so better practice being an emotionless automaton this early on. the best way to deal with hotheads and beeyatches in this line o' work is to employ calm, sensible logic. nothing's personal. kudos to dennis (my production manager/writer for the latest short film) for having been an inspiring example for that.
(sorry, it's back to the first person...blog license. hehe)
* the last time i'd been inside a mall was two days ago, and i suddenly realized how i had somehow missed it. just...loitering around the mall. watching movies whenever i want to. of course i wouldn't exchange my current life for the life i had when i wasn't busy (no better way to feel useless than to not have something to work on), but i'm looking forward to having those little leisures again one of these days.
* i have two rented vcds at home (schindler's list and one hour photo) which are almost a week overdue. somehow i couldn't find the time to watch them. couldn't even find the time to return them (and i can't stand the thought of returning them without having watched them at all. hay). i dread the day when i will have to return them and discover that i will have to shell out a small fortune for the overdue rates. syet. must find time to watch at least one of them tomorrow evening.
* awmygawd. just remembered. i'll have to formulate interview questions for tomorrow's shoot. dang. i have to bring my laptop to work tomorrow. or...hmm...maybe just make the questions before i go to bed tonight.
* we went to shoot in paranaque again today. and today i just learned that cavite and laguna are both in the south of the metro. all along i'd been assuming that they were on opposite poles.
* i had a great lunch today. really fun. the pork steak was sweet, the potatoes were yummy, the company was charming. haha. goal!
* i was dismayed by something today, but i realized that, hell, no use to carry it on my shoulders. i should've known better. high expectations almost always leave me feeling disappointed. and while it's nearly impossible to not create expectations in anything and any case, it's always wiser to just set aside the disappointments, get back to work, and strive to prove that i did have a reason to nurture those high expectations, after all. that i have basis, and the basis is concrete.
* so i'm a bad talent manager to myself. nabatukan ko na ang sarili ko. tapos nagkape na lang ako. tsaka nagyosi.
* politics, politics. don't let 'em get to ya. Da Haus might very well be the entire world as far as your time and daily activities are concerned, but don't make it the center of your life. don't give it that power. and yes, the powers-that-be in that little space in your universe aren't gods. they may be omnipotent to a certain extent, but they're not omniscient. take comfort in that.
* i wish i could lose weight. five pounds would be ideal.
* i wish i'd find the time (and yesss, the money) to buy personal necessities that i've run out of (cheek tint, hair conditioner, moisturizer...okei, luho na lang to. haha). the time will come, vain self. and we will coincide it with the mall trip you've been craving for.
* i haven't seen a movie in a looong time. in, like, a month, i think. syet. and to think that i claim to be a movie buff. blech. tv sellout na talaga ko.
* ho-hum. need to sleep. another long day awaits tomorrow. another exciting one, i pray.
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