happy, happy entry

nahiya naman ako bigla kay zelle. pero bigla rin akong na-inspire nung nabasa ko yung latest entries nya. kaya para naman maiba-iba, magkukwento ako ng masaya-saya.

down with the dreary, up with the sun. there are lots of things to thank god for, lots of things to be happy about.

how's these for starters. things to be happy about in life these days:

* starting like a lark anew.
slept at 1 am, woke up at 7 am. a full six hours' sleep in the normal bedtime hours. sana magtuloy-tuloy. cause it's a lonely state, to be awake when the rest of the world is sleeping.

* new prospects, new connections.
yesterday was devoted solely to two "introductory" meetings with mostly new people. one would be interesting to take on for the money and the connections; the other i'm highly dubious about, but if the script turns out to be fantastic it just might help feed the passion. yesterday i breezed from one end of the metro to the opposite end at rush hour. whattarush.

* the new movie on 3rd week of september.
7 days. new director. same old job. at least it's an addition to the resume. and connections. and friends. you gain more than just moolah with every project you take on.

* a blessing that came a little too late.
one of the people i met in one of yesterday's meetings was this guy. if this happened eight months ago i would've been walking on cotton clouds. haha. it's so ironic, because if god wills that this project should actually blossom, i would be closely working with the dude as my co-collaborator. when back then i would rack my brains out, trying to figure out how to be close to him.

heehaw! it's still a belated blessing, though, for two reasons: 1) i don't "crush" him anymore, and 2) he and the girlfriend already have a baby on the way, which makes any possibility of me changing truth #1 absolutely nil.

* another blessing that came a little too late.
have an appointment with someone, tomorrow at lunch. business-related, but interesting to note, nonetheless. cause a year and eight months ago it would've been something to be ecstatic about. same funny irony! in this case, though, the ironies have been pilin' up a little too high. because.

"i'll a gud-bad influence to you and draw you to a veggie resto near romulo hall." he texted me. i hate veggies, but wherever he's comfortable (enough for him to more likely say yes to my "business proposition") would be fine with me.

"oks," i replied. "does the veggies menu include weed? haha." it was a joke. the first time i met him he was wearing a t-shirt that proudly said "Doobista".

"weed can be brought upon special arrangement!" was the reply. haha. nothing more interesting than a guy who has a way with words.

except, well, a cute guy who has a way with words.

but this one's really passe. for a number of reasons. i have an odd feeling that he's secretly gay. which is somekinduva turnoff, believe it or not. plus the fact that i never really took to recycling crushes. apart from one glaring (and lengthily documented) exception.

* enough time to labor with love.
i missed that deadline. but that doesn't mean i should stop. because other opportunities will come for as long as the indie film scene is alive. and i should feel blest because i have some time in my hands to use before the work mills start grinding again.

there's much more. but somehow i can't shake off the dreariness each time i'd remember. i just have to consciously make an effort to fight back the sadness sometimes.